Count the Betrayal, Infidelity, and Disconnect all Joy!

I caught myself praying for two exes today that actually meant something to me but betrayed me as well (healthy marriage & a healthy baby). God is amazingly good! In the present you don't know why you go through the things you go through but it's awesome to be in the present & see how God will turn it all around in your favor. The art of being transparent can allow someone else to heal & sometimes it maybe the person that may have caused it. ~1

I’m in a space where I can actually pray for my exes. See, I don’t ever have falling outs with friends, so the next thing to that is an ex-boyfriend. When I love, I love hard. Yes, as cliché as that may sound it is the truth. When I’m in a relationship with someone it’s because I truly care about that person (& can see marriage in the future) and want to be with you. So, after a few serious break ups (serious meaning I thought the relationship would lead to marriage) I kids you not I disliked them with every ounce of hurt in me. It was like “Who did I fall for?” I wanted them to feel the pain I felt, see how they made me feel, just the whole nine. It was literally a broken girl wanting the same in return…loyalty, consistency, respect, the basics in a relationship!!!

Long story short because I’m not really into writing long post nowadays (which I believe a book is birthing within me through blogging here), but two guys I was in a relationship with in the past at different times of course) hurt me. Today I can actually mean what I shared above which I posted on my personal Facebook page. I don’t plan on ever reaching out to them but I hope God gives us all peace if there isn’t any on their end regarding our situations. I honestly don’t wish harm or have any ill feelings on them.

It kind of shocked one of my exes that I was so forgiving of his shortcomings. I knew it was nothing but God that allowed me to sit there & tell him I forgave Him. That’s the woman I desire to be, there is nothing cool or fun about being a woman who was hurt in the past.

I challenge you ladies to get to that peaceful place with God where you can actually have a forgiving heart regarding anyone that has hurt you in the past. Holding on to past hurt is so sick. It does nothing for you or the other person that was involved, but have you sad, depressed, scorn, mean and so forth. I will say, it took time for me to reach this place…4 years to be exact.

I truly believe God has a purpose for my pain. Whether it is to help others get past theirs or to appreciate the man He will send to me one day. Till then, I will wait...

I count it all Joy….Thanks!

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